with you

i wish i could swim

to the moon and climb

through the tide

but now

at least I can

drive in the moonlight

with you

the little brown bird

springs up into the branches

as he disappears

i imagine you

you imagine you

try it

you work

you walk

you write. somewhere. someone.

you

you laugh

out loud and i will hear it

and i feel warm

and cold

so cold

i imagine you

try it

so focused and holy shit it makes me crazy

maybe i was

i’d like to sit next to you

would wave goodbye forever

any way

a pause

a look grows and envelopes my

body

soft

i already know you’re going to say it

a beat

god i love you

and embrace you over your shoulder

it’ll only break your heart again

from my lips with confidence

it’ll be worth it

in cruelty

i have not listened

and i would rather not

i will make you fall

so hard

and now i may be

humble again

and make a still greater

fool

of myself

either way

i will learn some lesson

in humility

and be happy

deeper than i’ve ever

been

why not go there

why not take you

at the end of the day

i think of you

at night your eyes lull me

into sleep

but sometimes they leave me

lonely

i am left naked

breathing frozen air

i worry

to see her

because to see her is all in the

world that i want tonight

so i worry

and i worry

she won’t see me

because tonight she is surely

making plans

these pieces are falling apart

to all sides

which look like a star

from so far away

but feel just as lonely